I have begun to realize that becoming a mommy has brought me to a new place of identity or lack thereof. To define myself outside of the perimeters of wife, mom, teacher, sister, daughter becomes increasingly more difficult the more titles you add. And for some reason the mommy title has caused a doozy on my identity. At daycare pick up I am Micah's mommy, when visiting the house of friends and family the same people who reached out for me now reach out for him and thank me for bringing him. Now don't get me wrong I LOVE this new season of my life. A season filled with baby parties and being known as Micah's mommy however I was jolted recently by the thought that I do not know who I am with out these titles... which means I do not know who I am.
I must admit that for the past month I went through some very interesting (and not productive) processes in attempt to find out more about me. But the only thing that has helped me to uncover myself is to sit in silence and refuse to be afraid of me. Sit in silence with my thoughts, my visions, the intricate path in which my mind moves. I found that as I started this process I was a little nervous about what I would find, however I am not quite intrigued. I realize that I was created with mind different than anyone else, with passions unique to my design, with strengths and weaknesses all my own.
I would like to encourage all mommy's, actually all women, to lay down your superhero cape and sit in silence with yourself and rediscover the beauty of YOU!
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